Five Things That Make Me Proud

  Despite life obstacles that make Mt. Everest look like a speed bump, I found my way and continue to use a checks-and-balances approach to life. Even with the focus that takes, which I slip up on sometimes, I seem to have fashioned a career of sorts for myself, thanks to my laptop. The fact that it involves words and writing is absolute heaven to me.   I ran away and never went back, when I was in Grade ten, so only I motivated myself to stay in school, which provided a necessary structure for me. My wish to learn…

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The Last Time I Tell This Story

This is the last time I will tell this story. I need my mother’s love. I knew this all of my life and It is still true today. I need my mother’s love. She was beautiful and I would have told her so if I wasn’t so afraid she’d hit me. I need my mother’s love. I didn’t like Ice Capades but I would’ve joined her to watch a show about Barbara Ann Scott, her favourite skater. I need my mother’s love. When she scooped me up in her arms after Dad kicked over the coffee table and scalded me…

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Moving Forward, 1988 (Warning: Difficult Content)

Slashing became a part of my life at 21. Shocking behavior, some might think, but not so to me. I’d been two decades in a severely-dysfunctional family and I could only guess at what healthy was. Cutting and hurting myself gave me a strange sense of elation. I was alive. I could feel. There was hope. The first major event that led to what I now know as my non-feeling state, happened when I was in Grade three. Mom had left Dad, so my two brothers, sister and I joined her to live with my grandparents. Overall, this arrangement was…

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If You Are In Crisis, Talk to Someone Immediately

If you live in Vancouver, please call the Crisis Center at 604.872.3311 • 1.800.SUICIDE • YouthInBC.com Women Against Violence Against Women (WAVAW) 24-Hour Sexual Assault Crisis Line – 604-255-6344 Rape Relief TEL (604) 872-8212 Battered Women’s Support Services (BWSS) (604) 687-1867 In the USA: National Teen Dating Violence Helpline: http://LoveIsRespect.org, or 866-331-9474 In the rest of the world, please check out the retweeted numbers @PixelProject. They have a long list of numbers from all over the world in 80 different languages. Note: If anyone sees important links or numbers I missed, please leave the information here in a comment for…

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Eighteen Years

When we first got together, I found myself making rules for us, upon which we both agreed. When one or both of us crossed those lines, I was furious. But one day when I broke a very minor promise, With no disrespect toward you, I realized that those thick triplines Had faded into dazzling filaments under the sun. At once, with great joy, I knew how much I had grown. I trusted someone: You.

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